alex.
twenty two.
25MARCH85.
SINGAPORE INSTITUTE OF MANAGEMENT.
LOVE SPORTS.
WISHLIST.
laptop
printer
Happiness
back pack
good grades
trip to Taiwan
basketball shoe
new sound system
a good badminton racket
full LIGAMENT recovery
creative mp3 - at least 8GB
HAD BEEN.
June 2004
July 2004
August 2004
September 2004
October 2004
January 2005
March 2005
August 2006
September 2006
November 2006
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
October 2007
July 2008
September 2008
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
June 2009
October 2009
THANKS FOR BEING HERE.
Eve
Claris
IBP.. =)
AlvIn
Linda
Nui er
Ah Ron
Shevon
DA JIE!
YAK YAK.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Dear Jen,
I waited for one year, before i decided to write this very letter. However all the content inside this letter was form along the one year. Seriously i am at a loss at what to write now.. there is just so much memories i want to write out yet it is so disorganised. i also cant hide the fact that i dun feel much anymore, thus i have to resort to listening to a lot of song, especially emo song to aid me in writing this letter. guess what is the song playing now? "UFO- girl on tv".. i do expect u to know the significant of this song =)
This one year, i had alway thought about what really happen. Did i do anything wrong or say anything wrong? In fact the weeks leading up to 20/06/06 we were still doing fine and in fact we went out a few time. As such i dont really understand what happen that trigger the reaction u had toward me. Why had i set this one year milestone u might ask. but i really wish to move on already... in my mind it is not about having a chance or not since the day where we finally ended our super cold war, by being in the same bus home, you receiving the msg from the gals and me, receiving the msg from, yifeng. We walk home 2geter, after months of cold war and from that moment which we talk again, i know it is no more a matter of chance or no chance. in my mind i just wish to carry on with the very good friendship we had built by going thru so much. note tat i had say friendship, nth else.
I really value our friendship a lot. how hard is it to find someone of the opposite sex yet get along so freaking well, no backstabbing, can go for dinner and movies and jus plain old window shopping? that is why i was so disappointed by you in the past 1 yr. After going thru so much for the frenship, i expected more resilent of this frenship. Even if i might have done or say something wrong, u could had jus told mi. even if u r going to get attached or wat, we should still be fren right? i tried asking you.. i send countless msg to you yet u nver reply. i was the one making all the effort to find out what is wrong and trying to salvage the frenship.. yet u are just ignoring mi.
Once again i am stuck at not knowing what to write.. okie, Rem the time where in the mist of this 1 yr milestone i met u at the middle of the road near our hse.. i rem writing this down in my hp the very next moment after seeing you...
"i saw her.. finally.. at 7:35pm 16 dec 06.. after so long... yet the response is disappointing.. spoil my mood for the day.. funny thing though, the song playing n my mp3 was jian jian dan dan.. we might not had been able to see each other.. she had not seen mi till the very last moment.. and i was msging on my phone.. at the middle of the road i saw her.. for a good sec i glance at her.. she look like she was not ever gonna look up.. till the very last sec.. she looked up and saw me.. the face, e response, the familiarity.. all disappoint.. the look was like she finally saw mi, something she doesnt want to. i see it in her eyes.. somehow, when i saw her response, her eyes.. i knew something.. i knew that all the arguement, happy moment, presents, outing, phone call, journey home, carrying of bags, msn chat, support, frenship, tears, laughter, shouting, secrets and love doesnt matter anymore.... every single thing matter no more... for they are all gone... "
actually i saw you again 3 day ago... i was alighting the 190 u were boarding.. however, this time i really felt nth.. really nth.. i was quite happy to know that maybe i had finally move on.. that i dun feel anything much already... comparing what i want to write in the letter 300 day ago, to 200 day ago and finally to now.. i had cut away a lot of thing.. i decide not to write abt thing and memories which might make ppl think i still cant get over u.. that i still like you.. having said that, i still have to say u will alway be special in my heart... as a fren... a close fren...
i still believe you chose to cut off this frenship with ur hand.. i did all i could to salvage it but i cant.. as such i believe we might just have to end it here... Jen.. was a fren of mine...
解脫..... 是肯承認這是個錯.... 我不應該還不放手.... 你有自由走..... 我有自由好好過.....
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 12:10 AM
I will miss you...
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 12:07 AM
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
1 yr had jus pass.....
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 12:12 AM
Sunday, June 17, 2007
#1
Alex still believe he should be an officer.. He felt he have all the ability, leadership and skill to be one.. however jus his studies and fitness let him down.. even though he have been a sergeant so long, he is actually still quite bitter...
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Alex is a person who act super confident on the outside but is actually very low on self esteem on the inside.. =(
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Alex nver really got over being made use of in his supposely 1st and only "relationship"
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People nver realise how serious Alex's leg injury is. his ligament is torn, but bcoz he is still trying to play bball, wear shoe and boots, ppl tot it is not serious. but the pain he felt every time after all those activity only himself know.
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only carry bag for 2 girl in his life till now... (those 2 lucky ger!)
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Alex dun wanna set the 365 day benchmark but he need a dateline to move on. he cant jus keep on saying wanna move on but nver really go abt doing it...
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Alex feel he really very very sorry toward 1 person.. sorry..
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Alex really really wanna study uni... was so disappointed when cant get into those few uni... so have to be so happy and glad can go SIM!
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the 1 person who really understand Alex the most is his best bro yifeng..
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My boyfriend is type B, Just my luck, Eragon, wala wala, nite out is part of my beautiful memories
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The Sentinal, Silent Hill, brewerks, coffee club express, wala wala, track AGM, NYDC dinner, shopping, the blue watch, the blue box, the necklace, my perfume, my bday, walks home, i dun know if it was happy or sad memories... soon to be forgotten anyway...
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Alex now jus wanna be A simple Guy with a Simple Dream, & A simple Hope, to Find a Simple Girl to live his Simple life with....
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 12:18 AM
Saturday, June 16, 2007
lolz.. Sunday, the next day after yifeng commission, i was on my way to meeting him again.. this time to the far far away land of tampines to celebrate our dear corrine chong's bday... lolz.. wah lao.. so far.. lucky is u ahz.. some other tom dick harry u think i will make the trip? lolz...
And so mi and yifeng made the long long journey down.. talking cock along the way.. haha.. catching up and toking abt the tracks day... finally we reach tampines and took a cab over to her aunt hse..
upon reaching, went up and say HAPPY BDAY CORRINE!!! haha.. and she scolded us for being late.. lolz.. but anyway, saw lot of old pals there and of course was damn happy and did catching up too.. lolz... tok alot and saw old pal anky who is now corrine's beau... haha... last time told him they sure 2geter.. den he keep on say bullshit, impossible... now so farking loving.. prove tat life, fate is also impossible to tell.. but i am damn happy for them!!! corrine i had alway treated her like a sister.. and anky of course one of my best bud in poly...
During the party, anky brought out a bottle of vodka... haha.. and i ask him and yifeng to challenge a game of finger guessing... after playing awhile.. they realised i nver play again.. haha.. and they all rounded on mi, saying that i alway ask them play and i alway got away for the past 4-5 yrs... hahaha... but i alway win wat.. i told them and so anky decided to challenge mi... bad move i told him but he insisted.. so well.. hahaha.. 1 glass of vodka which i mixed while he was not looking.. wah damn it.. i lost a few match and need to drink.. wah quite strong la.. but heng.. the most i drink abt 1/4 of the cup.. the rest he drank.. told u dun play with mi liao.. i am not called the zu shi ye for nth.. muhahah!!!
we took quite a few photo.. can see later.. hmm... after the party, went to town with yf to walk ard and shop shop.. cant find anything so after tat went home liao... hmm... quite a few fren of corrine which i saw b4 at the party but a few new face too... 1 caught my attention bcoz 1stly look a lot like my fren.. and 2ndly.. she got a certain charisma.. hahha..
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 11:40 PM
Hunks and erm.. babes?
HAHA... nice prank corrine!!!
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 11:37 PM
monkey corrine!!
point here and there!
finally!! good take!
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 11:34 PM
Mel... Me... Man of the Moment.. Claris.. Ray.. Big yf...
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 11:29 PM
Dear dear dear... hahaha.. said i would blog on the day yifeng commission but well.. been busy and very tired.. so nver really blog.. haha... okie.. let tok abt yifeng commissioning day ba!!
Well well, after suanning this bro of mine for so long, he finally commission!! congrat congrat!! but i am still not scare of a lowly 2LT!! haha... but well my bro, unit life is gonna be so much different when u r a trainee.. so be prepared!
i met up with the grp of bros for yifeng's commission, well surprisingly, raymond & big yifeng was there.. cause i rem them saying they might not be going. Guess mel manage to get them to go in the end. I was glad they came, becoz tat is wat bros are for wat.. being there for each other be it happy or sad! or so i tot.. haha...
reached there, started raining.. bad thing... but luckily the rain stop jus in time and the parade started.. well after tat is the same stuff as mel'commission but this time mel is complaining a lot.. abt waiting so long, not wanting to go down to see him.. lolz.. and i reminded him "HOI, last time u commission we also like tat wait can! we also go down find u rite!" and there, it works wonder.. he went down with us.. haha
2nd commission parade i had seen, still felt i should grad from this parade square =(
anyway, mel hoh... super irritated by him la.. got digi cam dun use.. keep on use his N73.. it is not tat i think N73 cant take good photo but why use hp cam when u got bring digi cam? somemore i remind u to bring de lo.. den use to take la.. use hp cam.. kaoz.... haiz.. dun say liao la.. think of this also mad liao...!!!
Dear yifeng, happy tat u finally commission but also worried for u. u need to be strong and built up ur character even more when u r in the unit.. not tat i doubt u, but ur character had alway been such tat i cant help but be worried for u. but dun worry, u will get all the advice u can get from mi, and so i think can help really ALOT liao.. haha... congrat on ur commissioning... take care in ur remaining 1 yr of service! i gonna O-R-D liao... muahahha!!!
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 10:13 PM
Thursday, June 07, 2007
i guess my next update will be on the day yifeng commission... after which will be the highly anticipated post on 20th june 2007.. (at least it is highly anticipated for myself.. still dun know how i will feel on tat day but we shall see!)
=)
Alex is jus looking for a simple life and a simple girl.... =)
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 12:11 AM
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